A Little Love Story

5 Mar

1901175_10102061473951592_146478239_nA Little Love Story

So much has happened since my last post. I have graduated from being an aunt to being the mommy of the most wonderful baby boy, Landon Oliver. On this, my last day of maternity leave, I have been reflecting on the past months away from work and wonder why I didn’t write in this blog all along. Like many of the things I had planned to fill my time away from work, blogging was soon forgotten. Looking back, all the time I planned to fill, quickly vanished into the hours spent holding, kissing, singing to, taking pictures of, playing with, and just plain admiring, (the list goes on) my little angel. With all the mixed emotions of taking the leap back to work, I couldn’t think of any better therapy than to write my thoughts and reflect on my experience. So here goes nothing. Keep in mind, I am not an author or a journalist…I’m just a new mom in love.

Dear Landon,

You are such an amazing blessing. We were partners in crime during pregnancy taking on the world, one little tiny kick at a time. Sure, I got (and still am) fat but you are totally worth it. šŸ™‚ I never believed in love at first site until I finally met you, sorry Zack. There’s something about holding you that makes me feel closer to God. I’m not sure if it’s your pure innocence and vulnerability or the fact that I love you so much that I believe God loves us in that way too.

I’m sad I won’t get to be with you all day everyday anymore. I will miss the way your eyes follow me around the room wherever I go. I will miss watching you while you nap and the fact that you love to laugh in your sleep. I will miss our morning photo shoots and midday cuddle sessions. I will miss teaching you how to sing and cheering you on during your tummy time lessons. I will miss making you smile and stopping you from crying.

I’m aware that I will still get to see you when I come home and on weekends, but to me it’s not the same. It’s not the same intimate bonding time that we had before. But all good things must come to an end and know that I’m doing this for you. I promise to work harder and smarter for you. Iā€™m scared coming home at five and having only two hours before you go to bed is not enough time but I promise to make that time valuable.

I know you are too young to remember any of this but know that I will never forget it… the time we first fell in love.

I thank God for picking me to be your mommy and I pray I can be the best mommy to you. So wish me luck, Peanut, and know that Mommy does and will always love you.


One Response to “A Little Love Story”

  1. Mary March 5, 2014 at 8:23 pm #

    What a sweet letter, lucky mom. Luckier Landon!

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